If suffering takes years, how can healing take days?
It’s okay to feel that you healed from something yet it sometimes feels like you haven’t. Mental illness takes a lot out of us and it is not a compulsion to be fully healed so that we can please others. It is a journey, so we can please ourselves in bits and pieces.
I can still visualise the time when I used to cry almost every night, just because there was pain and I didn’t know what to do about it. I didn’t know a way out, so I cried. But through those times, I also prayed. Faith plays a great role in healing and making us stronger as a person. Faith in yourself, the Universe, God or anything that you believe in.
Why am I here?
I had a nightmare last night. For the first time in my life, it scared the hell out of me. The ending of that nightmare was me banging my head on the wall, and then, waking up screaming! Never had that one before. Quite a self-zombie acclaim!
For a few minutes I thought someone is in the room, so I acted out like they do in horror movies, I CHECKED. But unlike in the movies, there was no one. When I calmed down, I figured that the one who haunts me mostly, is myself. That’s exactly what the dream taught me.
